Coffee Fairy

Tuesday i spent the greater half of the day and on into the night writing. Monday too, but Tuesday is what drained me. My final test and 10 page paper were due on Wednesday morning and i was scrambling to get the finishing touches on my paper. Grr. I stayed up until 5 am Wednesday morning and got up at 6:20am. I dreamed of literature and woke up with Joanna Newsom's song inflammatory writ stuck in my head. i kid you not. Took the test, the essay part was brutal. I think i did terrible. One hour of sleep will do things like that to you. However, teacher gave us a grace period to turn in our papers -- 5pm Thursday. THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU! It made life look a little brighter. At one point while i was taking that exam and scribbling away on paper i realized that i had more or less been continuously writing for the past 12 hours. People, that is not cool. My brain has reached its limit i'm afraid. hoorah?

I have a Dr. for a sister now. She's so cool. Graduation was yesterday afternoon and it was far from boring but definitely long. 73 new Dr.'s. The storm blowing through took out the power on campus and all over S-ville. Made for a weird experience, especially the reception since it was at the V-school. c-r-e-e-p-y. Chats with Mr. G about missions and working with kids. Caught me off guard some. J.H. Ranch.

Youth Church practice at La's and Rudy's. Utilizing the daylight. Pro. Hunger pains were attacking the majority of the crew. Plan of action was put into play. Grilled the foodsen and ate by candle light. The stars....oh the stars were beautiful. Won't get that kind of a view in the middle of town ever again. G.C. goes home to where there is power. 2 papers left to finish. Sorrows. Little sis spent the night, she was sort of stranded.

And now that i have been successful at procrastinating.... i guess i'll get to work on finishing that horrid paper. yikes! wish me luck and stuff...or the abundance of creative juices.

Where is my coffee fairy when i need her?

~me

The Things That Are Exciting

Finals are upon us. In all the fullness of finals. The stress and dumbness and lack of sleep has hit an unnerving high. Literally. The fact that my eye has been in constant twitch mode for a week now cannot be a good sign. No, it just can't. I went over to Gracie's house last night. I walked in the door and she looked at me and immediately offered me coffee. Yea, it's that bad. I'm afraid i might start the zombie apocalypse here soon. So basically if i can make it through to Wed at 5pm central time, alive mind you, I will be ok.
I hope.
So, in other news................................i want to keep it a secret but really, most everyone who reads this blog already knows, so what the heck! I am quitting my job on Friday the 13th of May (ironic, huh?). This seems dumb but i promise i have an explanation. I do. So, this summer = a LOT of changes. People are moving away and basically it sucks. I'm possibly going to be a counselor at COC (yayay) and get to go to the beach with G.C. which leaves me no time to really work. I'd have to take off like every weekend which isn't allowed. PLUS, i'd like to be able to see and hang out with my friends before they leave and before i leave.
Wait what!? Did i just say "i leave"...? Yea. Don't make me repeat myself, kid.
Here's the deal-eo: YWAM. I probably mentioned something about this last year, maybe not, but it's been on my heart for awhile. YWAM stands for Youth With A Mission and is focused on discipling others and then training them to go out and do the same. The lecture phase is 3 months, which is short, but for me it'll be like 12,000 years because i have been prone to get homesick in the past. Maybe that's because i was dying in the Atlanta airport though? Yea...
Let's just say i am ridiculously excited! I still don't yet know where i will be located but i'm waiting. HE is in control and HE loves me, which is comforting beyond measure. I love seeing HIS hand working in my life and HIS timing...oh my gosh HIS timing is always the best. HE is good. I am blessed.
Expecting.

~me

Lovely

Heck yes -- Monday:
early to rise -- it's hard
studying at the Bagel
work was boring -- minus the one regular couple
i think i did productive things later
...i can never remember mondays

Tuesday:
classes
freak out about quiz in SF ...no quiz (thank you!)
meeting with SF professor -- i may or may not have said something stupid
free day in psychology = sweet
the bakery is my new favorite place to be
studystudystudy
misunderstandings are dumb
Dooeys -- ridiculous and awesome convos
frozen yogurt has a special place in my heart
...ran into psych prof. -- we hang out at the same places. ha
CATAN -- camels. that's right.

Wednesday:
work -- i love the regulars, they just make me happy.
dentist evaluation -- wisdom teeth come out May 2nd!
...also, i'm NOT going under. woah
index cards
government is important yet boring.
Bible study prep. :)

Thursday:
no coffee
classes -- dear 6:45am, i do not love you... -me
cramstudycramstudy
band-aid conversations
govt. test
major headache onslaught
bible study -- longer than usual but good [<3]
biology homework -- fell asleep on the couch

Friday:
wake up early to work on that bio homework
rain -- why is it raining? whhhhhhyyy.
rode to class with G.C.
walked to class in the rain -- gave up on staying the least bit dry
sat in bakery to read war of the worlds...
tornado sirens -- very chill dudes: "that's just a firetruck...yea."
led to the tunnels under campus -- i love the tunnels
escaping and coaxing G.C. to escape too and meet me
plan worked
McCool Hall -- the laughing people, we loved them
City Bagel [<3 <3]
B. sat with us -- nice chat, new news
nap FTW!
work
taxes online
fell asleep on couch again

Saturday:
prayer walk
bagel cafe
work -- tips are so nice
buffy the vampire slayer -- Sid
K. is cute when it gets scary
cookie craving = satisfied
fell asleep on the floor...
also, i'm OK with this:

Sunday:
slept later than usual
yayayay
still managed to be late
*sigh*
guest speaker. . .
testing
lunch with the kids -- i love us :)
i also love olives
waitress lady recognized me from work -- we chatted about frustrating and confused customers. i think we bonded. it was awesome.
paper writing
i am going to make it. . . .i think
school, end soon please...kthanks

~me

Panda

Today has been good.
Waitressed until my feet hurt and then went home.
Small chats with Dad.
Waiting till my gas gauge got to "1 mile" before i was on E.
Picnic at the winery with my book.
Silence.
Mr. Dinosaur's birthday.
Short and nice chats.
Can i have a dog, please?
Wishing i had ridden my bike today.
Tomorrow will have to make up for it though.
10 page paper is looking more and more daunting.
Did i pick the right book?!!? :-/
Fable. Watching.
Dragon Age, i will see you soon.....promise.
I miss my short hair.
Almost a year since last major cut.

So, as soon as school lets out at the end of this month (HURRAH!!) i am going to be spending my time filling out 9,000 applications for nursing school. Deadlines for Spring admission is in September, so i'm hoping to get them out by July. I can overcome procrastination if i try. It's true. Also, being sneaky, i'm planning to fill out a DTS (Discipleship Training School) admission packet. Both as a backup and because i really want to.

Explosions In The Sky concert over the weekend was completely wonderful. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. Going to see a band in concert generally always bumps up my approval and admiration for them. They were spectacular live and we had grand seats in the balcony. Pro. Drive = PETA, snails pace, gummy worms, rear ending other cars, God's grace, reading, silly talks, "52 degrees!", prom, whispers, G.C. makes me laugh.


Also. . . .I REALLY want to go to the zoo, btw. So desperately. Let's go.....please.


~me

Coffee > School

Here's a thing that boggle my mind: people who love school to death.
I would have loved to be one of those people but sadly i am not. The semester is slowly rounding down and my nerves are shooting up. I should learn not to panic. I should also learn to stay ahead in my studies. I'll let you know when i succeed with either. I have to find a science fiction novel to do a TEN page paper on. ACK! I am a slow reader...remind me again why i chose to take another english class? yea. OK, we'll call this a ramble and make it a day...or afternoon.

My new coffee thermos is the bees knees. Yes, i just used that phrase, judge me at your own risk. My coffee is warm and cognitive pschology is about to get conquered. Debating on playlist choice. . . .The National, Stars or Joanna Newsom?

~Me

Pie

I had pie. i've been wanting pie for a few days and if you look at my notes from school today you will see that that was quite evident. also, my psychology teacher was talking in class today about how when you study for class that memorization does not cut it. she strongly believes in semantic coding; M-E-A-N-I-N-G. i totally agree, so then she expounded upon this and how your environment is a factor in this, when you're studying and testing. I knew this from long ago, but then she said that if you study with caffeine then you should test highly caffeinated. it's actually proven to improve your test scores. sweet! not that i needed permission or whatnot, but being told to drink more coffee is *fine* by me! wheee! i absolutely love psychology class.

Spring break is quickly approaching. i always want to spell spring break with a capital "S" and "B". . .like it's some kind of important holiday i guess? anyway, it's coming up and i am mad'am planner. yikes! 4-5 girls, one car, camping, hiking, and lots of F-U-N. i'm hoping everything gets worked out in time and that i don't loose my head mean while. my government teacher decided to give us a test the thursday *after* we come back instead of before. i'm not sure i'm in total favor of this idea. also, i'd like a personal masseuse, please and thank you. tense shoulders. they need some love, mhmmm.

i currently smell like cigar smoke. no, i wasn't smoking. hullo, former asthmatic. time to wash clothes? i had fruit and coffee for breakfast. i had fruit and coffee for lunch. it was marvelous. the daffodils have come out. listening to mumford and sons by request of Rose. was in a Stars mood all day. accidentally yelled at a class mate while walking with him across campus. lesson: leaving one earbud in is still one too many when trying to talk to someone. my pie was delicious. lemon meringue. yes, you're allowed to be a wee jealous. <3

~Me

Walking Is Hard

Shin splints. They are evil and i would like it very much if they would stop happening. I think it must be the way i walk. I must walk funny. Or hard. Maybe i stomp? Whatever i do it has got to change. I found a campus bike today, but sadly (this is the part where you feel really bad for me) it was after i had walked all the way back across campus after my last class in agony and had almost made it to my car. I didn't care. I took it around the block and then peddled back to my initial destination. It made for a ridiculous yet fun trip.

I had a conversation with a classmate today about coffee. It all started with me walking across campus to my next class holding my coffee. He recognized me by my "curly hair and the fact i was holding coffee." Awesome. We discussed the effects of coffee and how much is too much, if there is even such a thing, and when you know you're an addict. He = noobie. I = veteran. I will teach the ways of drinking coffee...he needs lessons, he mentioned the forbidden word: decaf. I love coffee, in case i chance failed to mention that previously.

Also, i love dinosaurs and so then have decided for my upcoming birthday that i want a dinosaur cake. I think it would be awesome and appropriate...yea. I mean double-numbers are a big deal! The last time i had double-number birthday was when i was 11, so this double-number birthday calls for loads of fantastic ridiculousness! Aren't these amazing?


~Me

Compact

This is me and studying in a nutshell. Sadly.
:)

Mountains, Here I Come. . . !

I always seem to blog when i should be studying. Is this a problem. Most likely, yes. But the reading was getting boring and i was starting to fall asleep...again.

Well it snowed. Again. At least five whole inches and it was marvelous. Some friends and i went sledding at one of the only hills in town and had a blast. When can i move to the mountains?? The last time i remember sledding i was seven and in Montana.
The kids all sled down the hill on our butts in a train-like formation. I remember running into a tree more than once. That was also the only time i have ever been skiing. I ran into a building that time. I must have skills. Perhaps moving to a snowy climate would be a brutal decision? I loved Montana though, it was ridiculously beautiful and open. Miss it. Also, i would blend in! How cool would that be? I could be like the snow queen from Narnia...minus the evil schemes and bad temper of course.

I sent off my letter and admission packet to USM a few weeks ago. This one lady had to call me a few times to get things sorted out and send her more stuffs, but she was so pleasant. I appreciated her and her niceness because of my nervousness. *Anxiety overload!!* I have no clue when i will hear back from them and moreover i have no idea what i'll do when i get accepted. MOVE AWAY!? ahh. Hullo, i am a major introvert. Also, this raises a million questions as to where i'd live, with whom, how i'd support myself, etc. Nursing school kind of frightens me but i will conquer if they dare give me the chance. If not, i'm moving to Turkey.


~Me

Ze Coffee Iz Good

Feeling the need to update my blog, but i may or may not have anything interesting to say. I'm good at rambling, i know that. So, let's go.

It's been a good week. School on Monday, traffic was insane. Passed a wreck on the way to school. My Western Civ. teacher has a gorgeous voice but he is a bit of a rambler, but maybe that will change as he gets the hang of things. He is new. Also having a class with Delo = supreme delight. Makes me not think about my hunger pains at lunchtime so much because i have someone to chat with. Also because we compete on pop quizzes and bet food. She is bringing me goldfish next class period. ;)

Bible study was on Thursday. Woke up that morning extremely unprepared. HE came and we chatted and i felt better after that. I love it when HE shows up at bible study too. I never know what i'm saying when i'm saying it nor afterwards. It's like i blackout, but not really, which i take to mean that HE is the one doing the talking. This makes me feel SO much better. We also made snowflakes after class. Black ones. In August. Awesome. We also decorated them with glitter. They were to signify how even in our most uncertain and difficult or dark situations we are still supposed to shine and not be so consumed with our own problems. Break out of the pity-party that you've thrown for yourself so as to allow HIM to take over and shine. Plus! snowflakes are all different, just like our circumstances, lives, backgrounds, and situations. Black, glittery snowflakes FTW.

So apparently my friends and i attract cops. Or maybe not. Either way, they find us. Last night we had a surprise party for my little bro at the winery near the campus. It was dark and so we decided to play sardines. Kids + dark + hiding = way fun. However, Fancy winery building + silent alarms = cops getting called. We were all hiding, waiting for the last two people to find us when we see headlights and jokingly say it's the cops. Turns out it was fact. After the cops called all 15+ of us out of our hiding spot and explained to us the deal-eo and left the kids seemed thoroughly impressed with the party. Cops being called = best birthday party ever. It was quite hilarious.

I have City Bagel coffee and it is sooo yummy. Be jealous. My day is looking rather full. Prayer walk, breakfast, work, dinner, movie, yay. Busy is good. Thursday is my day of rest. I love Thursday dearly -- it treats me well.

~ME